Keep your head up Britney. You did good. You did the best you could do at that time. Like I said before. They are trying to break you. But don’t let them. Don’t let your mind go there. If you used something like (Propranolol) that I mentioned before. And if you still had problems with your heart racing, and feeling overwhelmed. You can probably increase the dose. But talk to your doctor first. And don’t take any other drugs, or alcohol with it for at least 12 hours or more. Or you could have a dangerous reaction. And remember to increase your fluids after court to flush the Propranolol out of your kidneys.
I think you did the right thing. The judge should have at least let you have visitation in a controlled environment. Until you, and the court can get things worked out better. You have never hurt those boys. And I know you never would. Unless you were impaired on drugs, alcohol, or “psych meds”. But you have repeatedly been clear of any alcohol, or drugs while the boys were in your care. So this judge is way out of line. I think.
Further, you have already been certified by doctors as not being a risk to your-self, or others. That is why they could not hold you in the hospital. But it seems your judge chooses to ignore this fact.
The fact that you have never hurt your children, have been clear of drugs with your children, have been certified by doctors as not being a risk to your-self and others. And that it is in the best interest of the children to see their mother. I think this is grounds for an emergency appeal to a higher court. Including the possible intervention of child protective services to protect the boys by seeing to it that they see their mother while the court works out the courts problems.
As I said before Britney. This is all about money. Your money. They are all trying to get you labeled with some kind of hokey psychiatric diagnoses. So they can dope you up on poisonous pharmaceuticals. And have you declared mentally incompetent. So they can try and get control of your money. But I don’t think you suffer from any mental illness. I think you are just under a TREMENDOUS amount of stress. But handling it very well. And slowly, but surely, working your way through it all.
See, some of the main things you look at when you think someone has a mental illness is.
1) are they suffering. Because “if it ant broke. Don’t fix it”. You seem fine Britney. Except for all the crap your x is putting you through, you seem to be a mostly happy girl.
2) are they a danger to them-self, and others. clearly you are not. And you have been certified by doctors that you are not.
3) are you able to function, and carry out the task of daily living. In other words. Are you able to care for your-self. Feed, and clothe your-self. Hold down a job. etc… Clearly you function at a very high level. In fact, you function at a much higher level than all the people that judge you. Most of them would not survive 5 minutes in your shoes before they would be eaten alive. But you do it every day.
Not only that. You work, and create art at a very high level. Cranking out hits with every thing else you have going on in your life at the same time. Plus you handle it all without over reliance on drugs, or alcohol. You are a very, very sane, solid woman Britney. Come to think of it Britney. You are an absolutely AMAZING! girl.
But lets say for the sake of argument that you really had some mental condition like bipolar. Not!.. How would you treat it. If it were me. I would only accept treatment from a doctor, or psychiatrist that would treat me with ‘TALK THERAPY”. Not drugs, or poisonous psych meds.
Nothing but good old fashion “TALK THERAPY”. Also called “COGNITIVE BEHAVIORAL TALK THERAPY”. This is supposedly the gold standard for psychiatric therapy. Most doctors don’t offer it. Because most people cant afford it. Plus the doctors make more money pushing drugs on people. Even though the drugs injure, and kill hundreds of thousands of patients each year.
And if the doctor I have wont do this for me, then I would find a doctor that would. Even if I have to travel from time, to time to another country. Or state to get it. You might have to search hard to find a doctor that will only treat you with “TALK THERAPY”. Most all the doctors in America like to push drugs. But if I were you. I would not take drugs. They will just mess you up.
Except for the crap your x is putting you through. You are a happy, healthy, highly productive, and creative, woman. Living a good life. And I would not let anyone mess that up with toxic, and poisonous psych meds. Just so they can get at your money.
Also, I have heard that some doctors will even treat you with talk therapy over the internet through video conferencing with you at home. Also, I have heard of a guy out of Harvard named Joseph Glenmullen MD that might treat you with talk therapy only. Or he may be able to refer you to someone that will.
So see Britney. Even if they did manage to label you with some hokey psychiatric diagnoses. You still have the right to choose what doctor treats you. And the right to choose a doctor that only treats you with “TALK THERAPY. No drugs. That way you can destroy your x’s and courts little plan of getting control of your life and money buy getting you messed up on psych meds.
But with your resources. They would play hell trying to label me with any diagnoses. Because I would have my own experts rip any opinions I did not like apart. And I would personally rip them apart with the facts about their lack of scientific proof, and validity for their theory’s.
Well that’s what I think Britney baby. Checkmate… 
